On the corner of main street
Just tryin' to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and
You say I'm falling behind

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

I never really gave up on
Breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind
Coz I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?

It’s funny how you just break down
Waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
With magic soakin' my spine

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The teenage queen, the loaded gun;
The drop dead dream, the Chosen One
A southern drawl, a world unseen;
A city wall and a trampoline

Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind
Coz I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go
Tell me what you find when you read my mind

Slippin’ in my faith until I fall
He never returned that call
Woman, open the door, don't let it stay
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said
Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind
Coz I don't shine if you don't shine

Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
When you read my mind

(by the Killers)

Yup... that about sums it up right now...

I was reading one of the blogs that I visit every-so-often, and I was really moved by what she wrote today.  She is certainly more eloquent than I, and has managed to capture exactly how I've been feeling lately in her post today.

Here it is:

"I am sitting alone in my almost uncomfortably cold bedroom as I write this. Pipi is sitting on the heater continuing her daily eyeball war with the pigeons and trying to stay warm at the same time. Rain is falling outside and the sky is grey. It’s quiet today. I’ve been reading the words of others and the taste of sadness and heartbreak is acrid on my tongue. Even at it’s most despairing, I am grateful for the sense of interconnectedness that this life sometimes brings. It’s the only good I can find in the slap in the face reminder of the tragedy that exists in the lives of others. I’m thinking about all the time I spend wondering why I can’t just be whole, about all the time I spend thinking about why I can’t be comprised of something other, something better, than my own back story. And I am reminded, once again, that I am no different to anyone else. The heaviness I sometimes feel, that weight, is not unique to me. Trite as it may be, I’m thinking that perhaps we are all just plastering the cracks, pulling ourselves up and out of the black, rising above, suppressing down, squinting towards the light trying to blur the darkness at the corners of our vision. Right now I’m wondering at the fucking courage it takes to wake up to the day after, the courage it takes to allow yourself to laugh again or even to smile. After all, it really isn’t life that goes on, it is each of us. We each go on. We each endure. Every conversation that I have had lately, and everything that I have read, has led me to think that not one of us is as alone as we each think we are."

- Taken from the Happy Misfit

I really like these words:

All that's left in this brave new world
Is ticking clocks and dancing girls
And broken hearts to find another way to shut it all out.
Take some time in life to see
This point of view from on your knees
Electric hearts will play a song you've heard a thousand times
A thousand times...

When I first heard the song, what caught my attention was the book reference, but what drew me in to have a second listen was the interesting imagery... I like it... I can't really explain it... this little cluster or words just makes me feel good... and isn't that the point of music, really?



*side-note*:  I've read Huxley's Brave New World, and it is an amazing piece of work... it's been many years since I've read it, so I think I might have to pick it up again soon..

I love this poem by Max Ehrmann...  there is so much beauty and such simple truth in his words... it was written in the 1920's, but I think it's so poignant today... I know many people are familiar with the poem, but I was first exposed to it a few years ago when we were visiting the boy's best friend in London a few years ago.  She has the poem framed on her bedroom wall, and it struck a chord with me and led me to read up on the author and origins of the work... by the way,  Desiderata is Latin for "Things to be Desired."

It's really moves me, and I had to share it, especially with all the chaos that is going on in my life right now, I think it is important to hold on to the things in your life that are beautiful and true, and take peace from them.


Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
 
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

I have decided on my real resolution for 2007...

To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to know it, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away.

I am so sad!!!!!!

I was doing some random surfing and discovered that my favorite indie band ever broke up a few months ago...  this is most distressing!  I was so sure that they would "make it"...  one of my absolute favourite songs of all time is by Plow Monday... and now they are gone...

*sniffle*

very sad news indeed...

~~~~~~

"Blank"

Caught
In your magic falling down
I was drowning in the sound
Of your mysteries explained to me by things I don't see
Blank
Was the stare you gave me
"No," was the word you said
It feels like there's something wrong
This isn't what I thought it was and you don't play along

But you're pounding through my veins
It's hard to just keep smiling
I can't believe you'd see
And still stay away from me

Be with me now I promise you that I can love you
Be with me now I know you have to know you want to

Once, I had tried to speak and
Twice, I had tried to leave
Your eyes had confounded me
It's more than I know how to do
To stick around and still believe in
Love
It's so hard to even say, and I want to get away
Because what if this is real
I don't know what to think
And I sure as hell don't know how to feel

But you've set this path for me
Without you I'd go crazy
Pretending I'm with you
When I know it's not true

Be with me now I promise you that I can love you
Be with me now I know you have to know you want to
Be with me now I promise you that I won't hurt you
Every day is a day that I want to spend with you and know you

Can't stand to change cause it don't fit
Can't stand to learn just a little bit
Do you want to live this way? It's been
One time around that you didn't slip
Found out and it's your last trip down inside
You don't to hide

Let it all fall down, let it go, let it go
Don't you believe that if you never try then you can never know?
Let it fade away, let me stay, let me stay
I've spent so much time just believing in your eyes
And I've seen you laugh and I've seen you cry so

If you'll just risk the pain then I'll risk feeling empty
If it's in your head put it down instead and hide inside my hands

Okay... so I'm completely obesessed with "One Song Glory" from rent...

It's been in my head when I wake up every morning this week... I'm such a nerd!

And consequently, I have a huge crush on Adam Pascal's voice... not his face so much... he's like a super-metro bon jovi knock-off... kinda... but his voice... there's just something there that resonates with me...

So yeah... I keep singing it over and over and over... LOL ! It's driving Eric insane...

So I'll share it here as well! Enjoy... 

...

One song. Glory. One song
Before I go, Glory
One song to leave behind,

Find one song, one last refrain, glory
From the pretty boy front man,
Who wasted opportunity.

One song, he had the world at his feet,
Glory
In the eyes of a young girl, a young girl
Find glory, beyond the cheap colored lights

One song, before the sun sets
Glory - on another empty life

Time flies - time dies...
Glory - One blaze of glory
One blaze of glory - Glory !

Find, Glory, in a song that rings true
Truth like a blazing fire, an eternal flame

Find, one song, a song about love
Glory, from the soul of a young man
A young man

Find, the one song
Before the virus takes hold, glory
Like a sunset
One song
To redeem this empty life

Time flies
And then no need to endure anymore
Time dies

"Buddhism has the characteristics of what would be expected in a cosmic religion for the future: it transcends a personal God, avoids dogmas and theology; it covers both the natural & spiritual, and it is based on a religious sense aspiring from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual, as a meaningful unity" Albert Einstein

I'm on holidays, and I'm bored... and we all know how bad bordem is for me... too much thinking time and such...

So I am attempting to fill the time until Eric comes home from work with silly quizes and random surfing and listening to music and reading and all that...

and I felt like sharing some lyrics, because this is how I am feeling right now...

So here ya go...


drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown